Thursday, April 19, 2012
Waiting for Watering
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
A Stick in the Mud
Monday, April 16, 2012
Digging In
Friday, April 13, 2012
Draw to a Close
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Drawing a Blank
Day 3
I start the day feeling a little antsy. I don’t really feel like drawing, and a review of the day’s planned exercise does not help with the feeling. For the next exercise I am supposed to craft a view finder out of plastic and card stock, balance it on one of my hands and draw that hand based on the resulting view. Frankly, it just sounds like work and I don’t really want to do it. So I spend some time farting around on the internet instead.
After an hour of monkey clicking around the internet, I finally get around to making a viewfinder…..sort of. I find the clear plastic clipboard I have intended to use as a viewfinder and draw a crosshatch on it. I start to get out the cardstock and decide that it really isn’t necessary. So I sit down to drawn my own hand.
Ten minutes later, I am still irritable and antsy. I stand up and sit down at least a dozen times talking myself into and out of the exercise. Why is this causing me so much ANGST? It is just a stupid drawing exercise, not even assigned by a teacher or a boss. Drawing is not the boss of me and I don’t have to do it. So there! I leave the viewfinder and go get some fresh air.
With about an hour to go until I have to leave to pick up my daughter, I return to my sketchpad. I feel like I committed to try things for 5 days and I really shouldn’t give up. So I decide to do the Day 2 exercise again, because it was pretty peaceful and Zen. I start on the Day 2 exercise and the first 30 minutes are just as they were the day before, but then I start to worry about the time. Determining the passage of time while I am drawing is pretty hard, so I start to worry that I am losing track of time and I won’t leave in time to pick up my daughter. So I start checking the clock every 5 minutes. This lack of focus is making the drawing harder and I am back to not feeling it, so I decide to pack it in for the day.
I don’t know what this means for tomorrow. Maybe this will be one of the hobbies I don’t make it through, or maybe I have been spending too much time with a child who has the attention span of a gnat and it has worn off on me. Whatever the case may be, I put it aside for the rest of the day.
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Drawing on Brain Power

Day 2:
I decide to give up on reading, “Drawing with Children.” Much of the information is similar, but is less interesting and the example drawings are much simpler and kind of boring. And less boring is good. I already spend a good portion of my day playing with a 4 year old which is great fun if you are 4, but less than mentally stimulating for the over 30 crowd.
Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain launches into a discussion about the fact that most people don’t learn to draw past 9-10 because they never learn to access the spatial relationship functions of the right side of the brain while turning off the dominant language and reasoning centers in their left. I start with a couple of exercises designed to show me how hard it is to draw when you are focused on naming things. And it is hard, very hard. I am instantly transported back to middle school and the suckitude that was art class. My brain rebels and starts hurling really mature thoughts like, “I am not going to do this and you can’t make me so Nah nah na nah NAH.”
When I am done struggling through those exercises, I move on to the exercises designed to HELP me access the right brain functions. I copy a copy of drawings out of the book, but I do it upside down. It is actually kind of hard to determine exactly what I am drawing, but when I turn them right side up they are pretty good. Not picture perfect, but not lamentable either. I also notice that I am no longer getting halfway through the picture and feeling like I have wasted too much time on it. I take as much time as it takes to complete the picture and don’t worry about the time. It’s actually kind of Zen.
Monday, April 9, 2012
Drawing the Starting Line
When I was little I never could figure out how to draw anything more than stick figures or box houses. My brothers both seemed to draw well, and I didn’t, so I figured that it wasn’t for me. My belief in my inability to draw was confirmed when I took art in 6th grade and Mr. Dyer (or maybe Mr. Dyer was my math teacher? I can’t remember so we will call the art teacher MR. D symbolically.) solemnly let me know that my drawings lacked perspective and merited a D. I spent 6 months in that class drawing the same damn barn over and over again, never getting any better and never figuring out why art was the only class that I couldn’t “get”. Until I said “Suck it, Mr. D” and moved on to rock out science and math classes. (Yep, I am the kid who took extra science classes as her elective because of my ineptitude at creative arts.)
Day 1:
I start by perusing the selection of books on how to draw on Amazon and cross-referencing what is available in my local library. (Because what does a nerd do when confronted with a need to learn something new? Research!) Two of the books, “Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain” and “Drawing with Children,” come pretty highly recommended and are available for check out. Off I go to the library.
When I get home I start to read the introductory portion of the books and put together a list of supplies. The list looks surprisingly like a list for a kid’s birthday party. It includes pencils, paper, markers, and whatnot. The books differ greatly in their recommendations of what to purchase. “Drawing with Children” recommends that the prospective artist start with colored markers to prevent erasing, while “Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain” starts with a more traditional charcoal pencil and eraser nearby. In fact, the only thing that is echoed in both books is the belief that anyone can draw if they practice seeing things properly. I put together a list of supplies and head off to the art store.
When I get home I conquer the introductory exercises. In short time I draw a house with a tree, shrubs and person for “Drawing with Children” (which I have included a picture of for your entertainment) and a self portrait, person from memory and my hand for “Drawing on the Right Side of the Brain.” I am instructed to look at them closely, and I am surprised that I am actually not too unhappy with my work. I already seem to be drawing better, just by checking out the books. Which is to say I am drawing like a regular 11 year old, instead of one that is eligible for special ed. Amazing!
Kicking this Habit to the Curb, for now
Day 5
It is the day for me to try out a regular martial arts studio.
Agnes is having herself a grump and disciplining makes me run late. I arrive at the studio just as the previous class is bowing to their teacher. A quick review of the people waiting to take the mat reveals that the class I had agreed to join is made up of three barely pubescent teens. When I speak to the teen working the desk, it turns out the main instructor is out sick. Unfortunately this is the person with whom I spoke about visiting and no one quite knows what to do.
I am feeling less and less at ease with this situation. I don’t really want to be the only person not dressed in a gi, the only adult, and have to explain multiple times that I am there to try out a class. I opt to flee instead. I head to the library to drift among the books. (Because who goes home early when you have a babysitter? Especially when your child was being a pill when you left.)
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The final word on Martial Arts is that it is a big question mark. I actually enjoyed the class at the MMA gym, but I feel ill prepared at the moment to keep it up. I will probably continue going to the gym near the preschool Agnes goes to until I pull her in preparation for her attending school closer to home. At that point, maybe I will feel like I have made enough movement in the fitness arena to stop feeling like I am too out of shape for their conditioning classes. We will see.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Kicking Myself
I am still feeling a little sickly, but I am determined today to do something martial art like. I decide a 45 min aerobic kick boxing class may fit the bill. Plus, I can leave early if I want to, classes at my gym are always packed and no one will notice if I slip out early.
The teacher gets us started with some music. We bounce our weight from foot to foot while we perform jabs, crosses, hooks and uppercuts to the music. The beat is too fast to really worry too much about form. I miss about half of the cues and generally look a little like I am flailing my arms around in sync with the music rather than performing any kind of real punch.
This class is full of my people, white bread suburban moms who have dropped their kids off at the built in babysitter before class. The woman in front of me and the instructor look like they are pretty serious about this being a boxing class and really seem to be putting some heat into their punches, but they are a minority. Most of the class looks like they are trying to punch their way out of a paper sack. I feel like my form and power are even more subpar than they were at the first gym, but I am more comfortable because there are too many of us to allow anyone to focus on my form and there are some that are much worse off than I am. I am a little smug, until I miss a cue and have my foot catch on my pants as I pivot and sweep my own leg out from under me. I rebound off the floor with my face burning and glance around and realize several people TOTALLY saw that. Super.
By the time the class ends I have worked up a good sweat. I am not convinced that the class would teach me how to actually hit anything, but all the shuffling around and bouncing might help me get enough cardiovascular strength to make it through a fight and teach me to be a little lighter on my toes. Maybe with practice I could even get through a class without tripping myself.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Kicking a Cold
Day 3
I wake up on day three feeling sick. There is no way I am going to do yesterday over again at another gym while I am running a fever. So I opt to hold my couch down by lying on top of it. (You never know when the gravity in the living room might get a little light.)
Determined to do something martial art-like, I watch Kill Bill. It is pretty gory and the mediocre plot line hasn’t gotten any better with age, but the fight sequences are still beautiful pieces of work.
I also read Harry Potter and contemplate if the title character could have kicked Voldemort’s ass better if he had a few Mixed Martial Arts moves up his sleeve. I ultimately decide that he probably could have. I make a mental note to enroll my daughter in karate even in the unlikely event she develops magical powers. (I would blame the fever, but that is really just how my mind works.)
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
A Swift Kick to the Rear
Day 2
I arrive for my class about 5 minutes early. The gym owner P is the instructor of this class and he leads me to the mats and heads into the equipment cage to procure some hand wraps and gloves for me. Once he has wrapped my wrists and fingers properly he tells me to get busy jumping rope.
The only other person in the gym says hello and tells me his name is Ernie as I set up next to him. Together we jump, taking breaks when we start getting winded or are uncoordinated enough to whack ourselves in our shins. Ernie looks like a bouncer, but is clearly not really into the cardio portion of the class. Occasionally P sees we are being lax in our jumping and yells over to us to get moving. Then P tells us to lift our knees while we jump. This leads to more shin whacking and less jumping until the instructor tells us to stop. Next up is bag work.
Ernie moves easily to his bag and starts pounding away. P takes me to one of the lighter bags, explaining that I should stick to them until I am used to hitting. He shows me how to perform a jab and a roundhouse. He corrects my stance, and reminds me to pivot and then leaves me to it. I pound away on the bag for a bit, finding it difficult to keep my feet staggered since I am so used to lining them up for proper form. (A remnant from some personal weight training sessions.) I think I am doing pretty well. Until P comes over to tell me I hit like a girl. Not just a girl, a girl who is patting a puppy instead of beating up a heavy bag. Oh, and I am dropping my shoulder and lifting my chin and basically begging to be knocked out.
While I am doing a dismal job on the heavy bag, another participant comes in a bit late. Lisa is older than I am but she looks like she could give Laura Croft a run for her money. I am clearly out of shape compared to everyone else I the room, but I forge on. 40 minutes go by and I punch, kick and move at the bag and back and forth across the room. While I am doing this, Ernie and Lisa are practicing most of the same moves I am, only on each other instead of a heavy bag. I am glad I am not taking their shots.
When we have about 15 minutes left we start working on “conditioning”. We run around the mats, do squats and ab work. While we are doing this P is doing his best drill instructor impression, yelling at us to do more, faster and better. I am pretty winded and any effort to slow down is met with resistance. I start to wonder if I am too out of shape to survive this class. Then it ends and I am mercifully released and go home.
Ten minutes later I am lying on my couch contemplating the need for lunch. My stomach is growling but I am unsure I have the muscular power left to navigate the 15 feet to my kitchen without collapsing. Instead of making me feel like I could kick ass, so far this experiment is making me pretty sure that my preschooler could take me down. It takes about 2 hours before I feel like I have arms and legs instead of pasta noodles attached at my hips and arms.
Monday, March 26, 2012
Kicking the Couch Habit
I have always kind of wished that I took karate or some kind of martial arts when I was a kid. I suppose I could blame The Karate Kid or Buffy the Vampire Slayer for my obsession. Who wouldn't want to be kick ass?
Day 1 :
I start out slowly. To get in the right frame of mind I watch "Kiss of the Dragon" and a couple Buffy episodes. Jet Li and Sarah Michelle Geller kick ass all over the place while Bridget Fonda does a bad impression of a strung out junkie. Excellent. I check out the phone book to find a likely place. It seems with the rise of Mixed Martial Arts (MMA) as sport entertainment there are a lot of places now. I must decide do I want a traditional karate/judo place or a MMA gym? I pick one MMA gym and one traditional place to visit. The traditional dojo isn’t open in the day, but I can go to a trial class later in the week. The MMA gym invites me to come right over and take a tour and discuss what I want in a gym. I feel a little bad not telling the guy that I am pretty sure I am not going to sign up unless I am SO inspired by his place that I would be willing to cancel my regular gym membership, but I get over it and head over.
I arrive in my street clothes at the gym 5 mins later. The gym is practically around the corner from my house. When I walk in, no one is at the counter. I briefly consider backing out, after all I am a thirty-something overweight stay at home mom, what business do I have being here? But P, the owner comes out of the back and greets me. He laughs when I ask if he can turn me into Buffy, at least that is a good sign. Our tour of the facility takes about 3 mins. There is a weight room, a small break room for kids to do homework, and the gym floor that consists of 2 very large mat areas, a wall of heavy punching bags and a wall with various small equipment like jump ropes. The gym is empty except for 3 guys and a 4 year old who belongs to one of the guys. Even the 4 year old looks as if he could take me.
The owner tells me that if I am looking to become Buffy-like, Muay Thai is probably the class that I want. It will teach me to punch, kick and use my elbow and knees. If I join the gym I can choose to attend any class they offer any time I want. This location has Muay Thai, Brazalian Jui-Jutisu, Judo, Boxing and Conditioning classes. He invites me to return the next day and take a class for free. I agree and head home.
I spend the rest of the afternoon learning about the different types of Martial Arts. Muay Thai is a kick boxing sport that originated in Thailand. It is closely related to a bunch of other Muay sports. It is one of several sports that are used in MMA or cage fighting matches. Brazilian Jui-Jutisu and Judo are related and focus on grappling and wrestling on the floor. I start to wonder if maybe I just picked the most hard-core class to attend.
Friday, March 23, 2012
Sewing it all up

Day 5
After yesterday’s disappointment I am about ready to give up on this project altogether. I am a bit dejected but I decide to forge on for one more day. I have decided to give up the idea of the dress and just turn the bottom half into a nice summer skirt. I consult my mother and review the construction of a skirt I already own and determine that I don’t really need a waistband if I add some interfacing to the top of the lining.
The lining and the interface come together well enough, and I start sewing the main fabric together and I become convinced that it is cut out backward. (The side of the fabric that is printed is cut to face inward instead of outward.) The difference between the front and back of the fabric I bought is very subtle, and it appears I screwed up.
This is the last straw in my mind. I throw the skirt in a heap in the corner and go play with my daughter.
After a few hours to cool down I start second guessing myself, surely if the thing had been cut out incorrectly I would have noticed by now. I have sewn and tried on the damn thing at least twice. I go look again, and realize I was wrong. I didn’t cut out the stupid little triangles on one side, but they are supposed to be on both sides. All will be ok.
The remaining construction goes well. The skirt is sewn; the lining is sewn to the skirt. I have to stop and dig for my sewing machine manual to figure out which foot is the zipper foot, how to attach it and how to use it, but once the manual is located all is well. My daughter and my neighbor (who knocked just while I was trying the finished product on) both have nothing but compliments. I am victorious.
Will I be sewing clothes for myself after this experience? Honestly, I don’t know. The skirt does fit like a dream and is cute. But the whole thing was a rollercoaster and may have cost me more in time and money than just buying something would. I guess I will have to see how much I use the new skirt this summer. I doubt I will take on a dress again anytime soon, but definitely pajamas and easier separates are not out of the question.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
As you have sewn, so shall you rip.
Day 4
I start the day looking forward to getting this dress done. I don’t know what I am going to do tomorrow, but I can’t imagine it will take me more than today to sew the three pieces together, add a zipper and put in a hem. I resolve to think about that later and get started.
Sewing the pieces together goes pretty well. I sit back and admire the work so far and I have to say it looks pretty dang good. I am just going to slip it on to double check everything and then throw in a zipper. Of course, that is when I when I hit another speed bump in this process.
This time I have added too much length to the bodice. Because of the extra length the bottom of the midriff doesn’t sit at my stomach, but down around my hips. If I put a zipper in this, it would not close. I am disappointed and unsure what to do next.
If I can get the length on the bodice just right, I could sew the midriff into the right place. But I have already cut it too short and too long, I am unsure of my ability to get it to the right place, even with some awesome advice from a friend. Plus, I really don’t want to buy any more fabric at this point and I don’t know if I could get the line even and matching the midriff piece if I just cut it while the bodice is together. I could just try to sew the skirt to the bodice and leave out the midriff, but that would give the dress a weird empire waist that I don’t think would be attractive on me, and could make me appear pregnant. My last option is to scrap the idea of a dress and just sew up the skirt. This seems the most realistic option, but requires figuring out a way to make a waistband without a pattern or instructions. Whatever I am going to do, because of the way I have constructed the lining, I have to rip out every stitch that I have sewn today to do it.
I get started with my tiny seam ripper, undoing all of my work. Breaking stitches is vaguely Zen-like work and it is alternately calming and deeply frustrating to break down my work and allow me to reach the place where I can start over, yet again.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Sew Far, Sew Good
Day 3
Since I have already completed the bodice once, whipping it together again is a piece of cake. It looks pretty good. I slip it on, and it is GREAT. I like it so much I think if I added a little more length I could totally make a tank top/shell out of this that I would love.
The day goes fast as I whip up a lined skirt and midriff. You know I may just be cut out (ha) for this after all. When Agnes sees the dress parts all ready to be sewn together she tells me she thinks the dress will be “beautiful”. I feel pretty darn awesome.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
A Stitch in the Plan
Day 2
I start the day by sitting down with the pattern instructions and a cup of coffee. A couple minutes later I am confused. I am usually a pretty smart cookie and a good reader, but I am having problems following the instructions that are full of vocabulary I am pretty unfamiliar with, facings, bias, casings and whatnot. Luckily, there are pictures and with their help I can sort of decipher what I am supposed to do. I feel like an idiot, but I forge ahead figuring that if I have a problem, I can just look at how other clothes in my closet are put together.
The dress I am making has a bodice, a midriff and a skirt. In pretty short order I manage to whip together the bodice. It is looking pretty good if I do say so myself. I slip the newly completed bodice on and……..Houston, we have a problem.
Trip 3 to the fabric store is pretty uneventful. I have now bought more than twice the amount of fabric the pattern calls for. I wash and dry again.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Sewing the seeds
Day 1
My mom and grandmother were master seamstresses. When I was an early teen, I tried to learn how to sew from my mom but it ended in frustration and tears all around. (Take one stubborn teen who hates to be wrong and one perfectionist seamstress who likes to point out all the places you can “improve” and you will instantly have foot stomping and door slamming.) This week, I decided to give it a shot on my own. I can always give my mom a call if I get desperate, REALLY desperate.
Thankfully, I already have a sewing machine. I bought one in a fit of crazies last year, convinced that I would make myself curtains and have it to fix rips and whatnot. I have removed it a few times to sew up a few pairs of pajamas for Agnes, but kids aren’t really particular about how well their clothes are constructed or fit. The fabric for the curtains still sits on top of it waiting to be made into something constructive. But for this week I decide I need to conquer a real piece of clothing. I grab out the sewing machine and leave the fabric. First stop, the fabric store.
I love fabric stores. I don’t know exactly why, since I don’t sew. But I love the feel of the fabrics, the wash of colors and the weird organizational system that makes little sense to me. I wander the store touching fabrics and just gauzing at them waiting for one to pick me. I finally settle on yellow cotton with white polka dots and a sundress pattern. All together my purchases run about $15, I think this is going to be great. I am going to get a great fitting dress for under $20! Awesome-sauce!
After 3 hours of washing and drying the fabric, (during which I spend a solid hour trying to find my iron) I am ready to cut the pattern out. This is something I feel pretty comfortable with after 20+ years of watching my mom, though I make a solemn vow to myself that I will manage my pins properly so my kid won’t spend her childhood wondering when the next pin is going to jump up and stab her in the foot.
Now I am ready to SEW! Except….. my first review of the pattern instructions shows me I have completely skipped the note that this dress is going to be lined. To be lined, I would need to have purchased lining material. Crap. Back to the fabric store I go, this time with my munchkin in tow. At least I can wash and dry when she is home.
Friday, March 9, 2012
End Run?
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Run of the Mill
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Running yourself into the ground?
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Running to stand still
Monday, March 5, 2012
Running for cover
When I was in school I hated running. It was my biggest nemesis and the reason that I routinely failed P.E. classes. Because my reaction to the mere thought of running was to cut P.E. and spend the period hiding from the librarian in the school library. (I know, could I BE a bigger geek?) Yet, at the same time I was convinced if I didn’t have to go to school or work, I could totally become an uber fit babe who could keep up with Navy Seals. Kind of like Demi Moore in G.I. Jane, but without the shaved head. Not everyone can rock out a shaved ‘do you know.
So when I decided that I needed to get fit, and possibly write about it for the blog, running was not really the first thing that came to my mind. But I did it anyway. Because I am stubborn and would really like to feel like I could do anything and this seemed as good as any place to start.
Day 1
Since my husband died, I have really rethought exercise. It isn’t just something that I do to look better. (In my experience that didn’t really work out for me anyway.) Plus, I want to model good fitness for my 4 year old daughter, let’s call her Agnes (like the kid in Despicable Me). Which is why I decided to do the Couch 2 5K program and take Agnes with me.
The first week of the program is to alternate running 60 seconds with walking for 90 seconds for 20 minutes. (After a brief warm up of course.) So we started off down the street while I walked pretty briskly and my daughter rode her bike. (Cue Eye of the Tiger and a training montage here.) We started on the sidewalk at our house, because our street doesn’t have a bike lane. All went swimmingly well for the first 5 minutes. Then we got to the main street we were to be running on (since it has a wide bike lane) and the running portion. I told Agnes we were going to “race” and counted us down from 10 to the start.
The first few intervals went pretty well, except that she kept swerving over toward me (and the traffic as I was having her ride between me and the sidewalk). In order to minimize this, I put one hand on her handlebars when she was coming pretty close and would steer her back toward the sidewalk. But her handlebars are pretty low and than meant listing to one side as I was steering.
Around the halfway mark, she was getting a little slower in her “race” speed, and I had to talk her up for the ride back. Her swervy disposition was also getting worse, so I started holding on to her bike the whole time. There were running down the street with me shouting encouragements, “You can do it!” And preying on her competitive nature, “I’m going to beat you!” While I am constantly leaning over to place my right hand on her handlebar. I am pretty sure this was less Rocky and more Bullwinkle than I had originally planned.
At the ¾ mark, she was actively moaning that her legs were tired and she wanted a drink of water. (Damn, I knew I forgot something!) I pulled her with my right hand and kept up the steady of encouragements, competitiveness baiting and promises that it wasn’t too much farther. We barely finished the last interval of running and I was happy to tell her it was the last, not so much because I was tired of running, but because pulling her along with me was giving me a cramp in my side from the odd angle. Once we reached the corner that signaled the location to get back on the sidewalk she seemed to pick up some more steam and we headed home. When we got home she told me that she had a “GREAT” time and wants to do that again, but also she was SO tired she needed a nap. (It was 8:30 AM, and she doesn’t nap.) And she did lie down for the whole time I was in the shower afterward.
All in all, I have to say the running was less painful than I imagined, and the daughter came through like a champ. I haven’t decided if I am taking her with me tomorrow or if I will wait until she is in school. On one hand, it will certainly be easier to do it alone, but on the other hand she can probably use the work out too and it isn’t like it killed her or anything.